Life is so... quick. Blink. And it's Monday. Blink. And it's Friday. Blink again. And it's next Sunday. And I think if I sneeze, it could be the end of the year.

Yes. I know. It has been nearly a year since I've typed anything in here. I was trying to catch up with.... Life.

I recently... (Well, actually... 2 months ago...), bought sulynn.com and even a hosting plan to stuff my portfolio and blog and what-nots that I want to choke it with. BUT - if you haven't already checked, there's NOTHING in there.

Bah.

And so, to sum my life for the past year or so:

• Work has been hectic - but healthy.
• As of last week, my level of work has gone up to 'chaos' 'cause my copywriter resigned.
• My relationship with William (Yes, I am still with him) has its quirky twists and turns - but exciting.
• My bank account is healthy too - but suffered some damage after I had my wisdom tooth yanked out. (RM570 dollars for some dude to whistle while slicing your tooth into three!... Ridiculous! I'd rather get stoned drunk in a pub and waddle into a gang fight to get my tooth knocked out.)
• My social life has deteriorated down to a negative number.
• ...and because of that, I now have 2 fighting fishes (in the toilet - a Reddish Turquoise one named Flop and a Purple sad-looking-thing named Flip) and 2 hamsters (fat one named Ding, small one named Doink).
• .................. (spent 10 mins recalling what had happened in the past year)........
• ... ... (recalling mission failed miserably)

Uh-huh. There. My entire year summed up in .... 8 points. The last 2 points are not even valid.

Ah well. Life.

OMG

Another inavoidable conversation in the office...

Lee : Su arr... have you heard of this show.. the girl's name is Xena.

L : Yarrrrr.... why ar? You like the girl ar?

Lee : Yaa.. I like her body type. Maybe in Malaysia they don't like cause they like skinny skinny type of girl.

L : Yarr... but her assistant, Gabrielle is somewhat skinny.

Lee : Yaa.. but hers is smaller size. I see Xena also i can get hard wan.... Heheh. You know what I mean..?

L : ................. .... ... ...

Like it isn't obvious enough! DOHHHHH!

*sighs*

Things are tough at work.. and things aren't much better at home. I seem to be doing work everyday but nothing seems to get done - they just keep piling up higher and higher. I seem to be working my arse off (incidentally, i love my work, it's the only other thing that i love other than william) but my mum thinks i have been contributing nothing to the family - and then i think to myself .. family?.. Family is a place of serenity - somewhere you can hide from the outside world - you'd enjoy being with family. But...

I get cornered. And everytime when i implement a solution, another problem would dampen the spirit. It's like a vicious inifite kinda thing - problem, solution, problem, problem, solution, solution, problem... repeat cycle for XXXXX amount of times you feel like stabbing yourself repeatedly with a blunt knife.

I don't want to smile while deep inside all i want to do is to scream at your consistent naggings about the past and what should have been done to avoid the past. I don't want to weep silently in my car and wake up with swollen eyes. I don't want to raise the volume of the radio to muffle my screams. I don't want to talk about the latest movie when someone asks me about the wellbeing of my family - because i don't think my family is being well at all.

Yes, i am thankful that they are around but are they thankful that i am around? Everything i do seems to be not enough. i work late because i want to succeed in my career and be happy about something, goddammit. And i love being with my boyfriend - he is my only source of 'life' - because i get extremely stressed when i am with someone who keeps telling me that i am a useless person - would you like it if i keep telling you that you 'suck' everytime i catch a glimpse of you?

There's only so much of patience that a person has and mine is running on reserves.

I want to spend my own money, live in my own home, take my own sweet time to be with the person that i love, work when i want to, smile when i really mean it and just.. .. be happy. I don't want to listen to what you want me to do - I want you to listen what I want to do. I want to be left alone to live my own life.

I want to LIVE MY LIFE.

*dirty lil' secrets*
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*going vintage!.. flat ass though*
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*decided to go funky for this month's editors notes*
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*Ultra Violet!!!!!!... Her sword looks weird though.*
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*we got chased by a security guard along Bintang Walk after we took this shot... *
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*Cover for March 05 - looking as if he just got robbed and chucked at the roadside- Hehe. It was freaking HOT okk.... the photoshoot was at Bukit Bintang. But nice!*
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H@ppiness

*guess what... caroline and josephine revisiting their days at kindergarten. hehehe. we were waiting for Yee Peng at her house*
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The last few weeks were just perfect. Work was good (stressful as usual.. but I get bored when things are slow). William was good - he's kinda happy with his job. And I get to see him almost every day after work. (if there's not much work).. and he would come and keep me company if i have to stay back (muahs muahs). He's so swweett...

Valentines was lovely. I had a late work night. And he still insisted to come to my office all the way from his work place (he works like on the other side of the city... near my house.. and i work like... miles away from my house.. gah.. the irony). I bought him a Casio watch. It took me 30 mins to decide on the color. Gah. but anyway.. it looked ok lor.. pokai liao. and he bought me roses. And then we just walked across to Wisma Cosway to have a quiet Japanese dinner.. (the only place in town where it wasn't packed). All very nice.

Ahh... Lovely lovely. *still in a luvvy daze*

*awwww.. roses for Valentines - i think he got them from Cold Storage... They were so pretty!.. Them flowers are sitting on my dining table... drying away.. and i think they should be rotting too. Now I'm just wondering how to keep the petals together*
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*me feeling a little tired from work on Jan 19th, our first year anniversary. :) :) :)- maybe cause he didn't want to get me famous amos*
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