L.O.V.E

1:54 pm at the office. *sighs*. Time does go past very, very slow when you are in love.

Am I in Love?

W is totally different from all the other guys. He's as intellectual as N but with no signs of ego-ism. He is as sweet as B but much more innocent and sincere. He is better than E.. in every single way possible. His smile is much more adorable than A. He is so much more comfortable than a jacuzzi filled with red rose petals and lavender stalks. He is so much more comforting and homely than baby powder. . . . . . . . Am I?

Oh .... fishhh....

... I think I am.

ARGH!

Gosh... It's been a hectic week... it being the first week of the year..(or.. second.. )..

Was sick since Monday.. having a fever. Carried on working.. did not go to the doctors cause I was lazy (HaHa). And then I couldn't take it on Wed night.. so I took a much deserved MC. Thursday was good.. slept the entire day..watched Reshmonu at Passion on Thursday with clubber bud Azrieff (He's a sweet guy)... then Friday.. HAH.. Friday I tell you.

Boss was being a bitch. Her pricelists were f**ked up. Had changes every second. The items from the factories were all f**ked up (don't they understand english???? ). And they best thing was... my Boss saying "Lynn, I did not see the proposal!".. And I had left it in the operations manager's pigeon hole a month before for review.

There I was.. for the entire 6 months... working god damnned hard to please her.. doing my job quite well.. got loads of reviews for the damn company in the magazines.. stayed back in the office because 'Oh lynn do you really need to go out' lame lines (which translates to DON"T GO OUT BECAUSE I NEED YOU TO DO SOME WORK WHICH IS NOT RELATED TO YOUR JOB SPECIFICATIONS). Anyway, do you think id waste my transpport allowance on going to the shops just to get scolded and ignored? PAH. Up hers.

BUT well... I was a good girl... in the morning.. and did her screwed up pricelists and checked 2 collections for her just to be on the safe side (I anticipated it actually.. about her not letting me out.. just call me psychic or maybe it's the "I HAVE BEEN WORKING FOR TOO BLOODY LONG IN THIS COMPANY WITHOUT ANY RECOGNITION" syndrome. Finished everything in record time of 4 hours (better than some) and was ready to leave at 230. Then at 231pm... ..

"Oh, Ms ---- I have to get down to ---- to meet up with this potential credit company to promote our brand (for free, b---h because you dont' have the goddamned budget for A&P.. )"

"Har? Lynn... no one told me (duh, it's my job) that you are going out why why why? and who is this --- company har? I don't know about them??"

"Ms ----, i have already put the (f***ing) proposal in for review and I think you have been briefed about it (sine the last F****ing donkey months ago. I have already made appointments already"

"Har? Lynn .. no i didnt see it (yeah maybe you need some f***king brains to process the signals from your eyes) I don't know anything about it. Lynn i need you here... to take the photos, to talk about the marketing plan (yeah.. i have already got the plan.. just fill in the bloody blanks on what you want to do and then we can talk about it. do i need to be around to write it down for you?) .. can't you cancel the appointment??"

"erm, Ms ---- i have already made the appointment with them.. it's 245 and the appointment is at 300. they called me several times already. and I promise I will do it saturday morning"

"Har?? no lynn, i need it today... today... there's so many things to do!!... today today... tomorrow I won't be around""oh.. you won't be around tomorrow?"

"ya.. i won't be around " (i should have noticed her lying face at that moment and stabbed her with her pinocchio nose)

Score :: Bad Boss - 1 Lynn - 0

Well, I finished her pictures and pricelists under an hour (which was... needless to say... longer than usual because I didn't give a shit about performance anymore longer than I wanted to stay in her company'). And I left when the clock was 530.

Annnyywayy.... that evening i received an sms that my work was appreciated and that she thanks me for helping her. PAH. i need more than that. how bout a bonus and a raise you numb nut? I can't keep your sms's to claim for chips now can i???

Well, So, saturday morning. woke up with a blasted fever and guess what.. FLU!... so i smsed her saying that I would be at the doctors. and guess what she says "oh it's ok.. i'll be in the whole day.. you can come anytime."

Score:: Bad boss = 2 Lynn = 0

The first thing on my mind was "Bl**dy ungreatful B***h".She lied. She was always lying. about the damn pay, about the 100 raise, about the 'future' with the company. all a crock of her 'china made items' (=shit).

So. I didn't go to work. she can take her own nude pictures all she wants.

Score:: Bad boss = 2 Lynn = 1

Then... after contemplating the various methods of annihilating her and her sad excuse of a company (plans were put on hold as I was on a date with William) i decided on sending in my resignation template. (this template I have used for 2 times before this. it's becoming pretty handy. even my colleagues have started using it. i should put a copyright on it and as for loyalty fees, i'll charge them 10 percent of the alcohol that would be used on the celebration night)

HHAHAAHAHA. life is good

Final Score:: Bad boss = 2 Lynn = 2

Lost?

*thoughtful .. .. ... . *

the last few weeks has been hectic.. extremely hectic.. mixes of emotions all jumbled up to become a huge mess of rojak. the thing with the boss and all... actually.. that's about the bad part about the past week.. and every rojak always has the little good piece of crunchy keropok bit..

Carol... one of my best friends.. Well, actually I don't know how she became one of my closest friends.. it just.. happened. Anyway.. she has loads of friends... loads of them I tell you. Most of them guys wanting to get into her panties but the other minority batch of guys are usually not too bad. Well, can't say anything much about their looks (kl guys.. What to do.. ) but not to say that I am extremely pretty also la. What to do. Cacat Birds of the Same Cacat species attract the same species la.

.. So anyway.. Will wasn't super gorgeously attractive all at..tall, lanky, pale vampireish kinda.. guy. Like one of those studious people - but I do like vampires though.. (Hmm.. now to come to think of it... Vampires are SeXxeH).. . But I do remember his intellect.. his.. perception of things.. his language... but.. that's all I remembered from the meeting back a few years ago. but i never took one look back at him and that brief meeting... not until recently.. when we crossed paths again.

i think of him.... well.... .. not all the time.... . But i do think of him constantly after i receive any of his sms-es.. and then it fades cause.. well... who would want a girl like me la. Loud, arrogant, noisy, sarcastic... the works... .. only during the occasionnal sms-es.. when i have that little spark of hope .. which dies out quite fast also la because i never thought i would be that lucky. I was thinking whether his mum would kill me when I sent him home after a late disco band (i figured out that he was a mummy's boy quite easily.. - he's just too innocent! - *yarrrr ritee... *).. sorta thingy near my place at work. and that was his (or our) first date out together.

It was a pretty long day. and I was very surprised that i actually had a good time. better than the date with ed. with will, there were so many things to talk about, to learn about. i think we talked ourselves hoarse. and the movie was hillarious too.but.. is that it?.. just the smartness? I thought i was attracted to smarts but then.. i realise, i wasn't like.. superbly blown off my feet with just only that.

maybe i overestimated it.. maybe.. i also need a little charm in my man-to-be. someone who would appreciate my independance, but someone smart enough to know when i need some fussing around, you know... i love being childish.. someone.... able to handle... every single one of me (now i am being nonsensical). a little bit of B perhaps. or N. i think i thought about N the longest.hmm.. now to come to think about it. i thought about N more because he had the brains to shut me up, he had the charm to flatter me, he had the manliness that i trusted - and i knew him the longest.. since .. college (and I am a loyal 'dog'.. i tend to be attached to a person after a long period of time - in friendships).

Hmmm...Yes.. it's the trust. It's the trust in a guy that attracts me. the trust to let him handle situations without having me to nag at him. the independance of making decisions (that i must coincidentally agree with). to treat me like an equal.. with lots of flattery.. and romance.. and sweetness... and... confidence.. , but to care for me like a little... baby. well.. not a dumb baby... ... .... .. gah. I'm some damn confused girl.