Another inavoidable conversation in the office...
Lee : Su arr... have you heard of this show.. the girl's name is Xena.
L : Yarrrrr.... why ar? You like the girl ar?
Lee : Yaa.. I like her body type. Maybe in Malaysia they don't like cause they like skinny skinny type of girl.
L : Yarr... but her assistant, Gabrielle is somewhat skinny.
Lee : Yaa.. but hers is smaller size. I see Xena also i can get hard wan.... Heheh. You know what I mean..?
L : ................. .... ... ...
Like it isn't obvious enough! DOHHHHH!
Thursday, April 13, 2006
*sighs*
Things are tough at work.. and things aren't much better at home. I seem to be doing work everyday but nothing seems to get done - they just keep piling up higher and higher. I seem to be working my arse off (incidentally, i love my work, it's the only other thing that i love other than william) but my mum thinks i have been contributing nothing to the family - and then i think to myself .. family?.. Family is a place of serenity - somewhere you can hide from the outside world - you'd enjoy being with family. But...
I get cornered. And everytime when i implement a solution, another problem would dampen the spirit. It's like a vicious inifite kinda thing - problem, solution, problem, problem, solution, solution, problem... repeat cycle for XXXXX amount of times you feel like stabbing yourself repeatedly with a blunt knife.
I don't want to smile while deep inside all i want to do is to scream at your consistent naggings about the past and what should have been done to avoid the past. I don't want to weep silently in my car and wake up with swollen eyes. I don't want to raise the volume of the radio to muffle my screams. I don't want to talk about the latest movie when someone asks me about the wellbeing of my family - because i don't think my family is being well at all.
Yes, i am thankful that they are around but are they thankful that i am around? Everything i do seems to be not enough. i work late because i want to succeed in my career and be happy about something, goddammit. And i love being with my boyfriend - he is my only source of 'life' - because i get extremely stressed when i am with someone who keeps telling me that i am a useless person - would you like it if i keep telling you that you 'suck' everytime i catch a glimpse of you?
There's only so much of patience that a person has and mine is running on reserves.
I want to spend my own money, live in my own home, take my own sweet time to be with the person that i love, work when i want to, smile when i really mean it and just.. .. be happy. I don't want to listen to what you want me to do - I want you to listen what I want to do. I want to be left alone to live my own life.
I want to LIVE MY LIFE.
I get cornered. And everytime when i implement a solution, another problem would dampen the spirit. It's like a vicious inifite kinda thing - problem, solution, problem, problem, solution, solution, problem... repeat cycle for XXXXX amount of times you feel like stabbing yourself repeatedly with a blunt knife.
I don't want to smile while deep inside all i want to do is to scream at your consistent naggings about the past and what should have been done to avoid the past. I don't want to weep silently in my car and wake up with swollen eyes. I don't want to raise the volume of the radio to muffle my screams. I don't want to talk about the latest movie when someone asks me about the wellbeing of my family - because i don't think my family is being well at all.
Yes, i am thankful that they are around but are they thankful that i am around? Everything i do seems to be not enough. i work late because i want to succeed in my career and be happy about something, goddammit. And i love being with my boyfriend - he is my only source of 'life' - because i get extremely stressed when i am with someone who keeps telling me that i am a useless person - would you like it if i keep telling you that you 'suck' everytime i catch a glimpse of you?
There's only so much of patience that a person has and mine is running on reserves.
I want to spend my own money, live in my own home, take my own sweet time to be with the person that i love, work when i want to, smile when i really mean it and just.. .. be happy. I don't want to listen to what you want me to do - I want you to listen what I want to do. I want to be left alone to live my own life.
I want to LIVE MY LIFE.
Friday, March 24, 2006
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Thursday, March 02, 2006
H@ppiness
*guess what... caroline and josephine revisiting their days at kindergarten. hehehe. we were waiting for Yee Peng at her house*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
The last few weeks were just perfect. Work was good (stressful as usual.. but I get bored when things are slow). William was good - he's kinda happy with his job. And I get to see him almost every day after work. (if there's not much work).. and he would come and keep me company if i have to stay back (muahs muahs). He's so swweett...
Valentines was lovely. I had a late work night. And he still insisted to come to my office all the way from his work place (he works like on the other side of the city... near my house.. and i work like... miles away from my house.. gah.. the irony). I bought him a Casio watch. It took me 30 mins to decide on the color. Gah. but anyway.. it looked ok lor.. pokai liao. and he bought me roses. And then we just walked across to Wisma Cosway to have a quiet Japanese dinner.. (the only place in town where it wasn't packed). All very nice.
Ahh... Lovely lovely. *still in a luvvy daze*
*awwww.. roses for Valentines - i think he got them from Cold Storage... They were so pretty!.. Them flowers are sitting on my dining table... drying away.. and i think they should be rotting too. Now I'm just wondering how to keep the petals together*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*me feeling a little tired from work on Jan 19th, our first year anniversary. :) :) :)- maybe cause he didn't want to get me famous amos*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
R@ndom s.h.o.t.s
*sara - the writer*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*burpy - the designer*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*aunty li jiun from singapore - the..... .. aunt.. from singapore*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*jess and sharm toasting to our friendship. photo taken before jess left for Aust (again) and before sharm flew off to Japan for 3 months - all expenses paid (lucky bi@tch)*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*caroline and jess at my BBQ party for.. new year's eve... i think.. (and i have no idea why my camera always catches pple in the most awkward face ...contort)*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
M.e.m.o.r.i.e.s of Girls only nites
Yup. Just some photos from my phone. Broke a part of the memory card (smart ass) but it still worked (thank god.. ). Will definately try and get burpy and sara and wai leng to gether for a night out. see if they can handle the weird shit that goes around in pubs.
*elly & evelyn - my two buddies at 'work' on the dance floor at carnegies*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*People just can't keep their lips off me. hehehe*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly and i mucking around*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly & evelyn - my two buddies at 'work' on the dance floor at carnegies*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly and her 'fling'. he was nominated as one of the Cleo Bachelor's of the year 2004..(i think).. and she just had to drag me to Carnegies juuussttt to have a peek at him. Well, lucky for that cause Carnegies has been a good place for leyparking. :)*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly goes 'nggeekk'*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly & evelyn - my two buddies at 'work' on the dance floor at carnegies*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*People just can't keep their lips off me. hehehe*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly and i mucking around*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly & evelyn - my two buddies at 'work' on the dance floor at carnegies*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly and her 'fling'. he was nominated as one of the Cleo Bachelor's of the year 2004..(i think).. and she just had to drag me to Carnegies juuussttt to have a peek at him. Well, lucky for that cause Carnegies has been a good place for leyparking. :)*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*elly goes 'nggeekk'*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
Friday, February 10, 2006
luvly d@ys
*muahs*
Gong xi fa cai to everyone... *sighs*. it's now... nearly chap goh mei already. feels like it was just yesterday when william and i had spent a few days in singapore. Yarrr... we went to the bird park and the science centre!! (... .. no money to shop laaaa... so go and prod science stuff lorrr... ).
I had fun.. learnt more about planes.. and MAH JONG!.. pretty addictive game ler. must get my paws on a set.. hmm... maybe i shall bug william for a set. and he's got a job!.. WoooOoTt.. ! yar.. and he owes me a bag of famous amos cookies (with macadamia nuts) and also a bouquet of roses for valentines. Nyeh.
Yar. I hope you like the picture. cute yar those little birdies.
*.... .. wwwaaarrtttt you looking at???.. *
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*this cockatoo kept on saying 'harlo'.. and the spunky coot nearly pecked the camera to pieces*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*... CAAAKK!!!! .. *
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*hmm... i think i have a nut stuck up my beak.. *
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*huu yeahh.... check out my chest!!..ArrArr! *
~an original p@ssion-@rt
*this inquisitive pretty little peacock was so kind to stay still for a close up*
~an original p@ssion-@rt
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
2006 - a n.e.w st@rt?
Ah. It's been a long time since the last update. With the New Year coming and going, Christmas is long gone and the Chinese New Year is looming up - where the heck has all the time gone? Not to mention that it's just 7 hours till my first year anniversary with william. *happy thoughts*
Work has been piling up as usual - the boss had let go one of the staff and well, guess where does the work go to? No candies for the right answer. :P
Christmas was uneventful. Had a 'small' gathering (which eventually expanded to a full-fledged BBQ party - thanks to my brother's friends). I had a wonderful evening with William by my side. It's amusing to watch him acting so differently in front of Sharmila and everyone else. It seems as if I have a secret crush on this other person other than the William that I know. On one side, he's the macho, protective, gung-ho, smooth talking gentleman - whom I admire and feel soooo secured in his arms. And on the other side, he's the typical lovey-dovey darling, possessive, whiny-baby-ishy little baby boy - whom I love to manja, to cuddle and sometimes take advantage of.
And he didn't even make a fuss when my mum woke us up at 3am to wash the dishes that my ding head of a brother did not bother to help with. However, we did get a shelling from his mum the next afternoon cause he was late for lunch (in other words, everyone in the house is so incompetent that he has to prepare any meal when the maid is off for holidays) and his entire family was left starving. (yar.. starvation for like 15 minutes.. In desperation, his brother chucked 2 raw potatoes with 2 slices of cheese into the microwave - the result looked like some nuclear bomb detonation had gone really wrong.. and the cheese looked as if it was part of the plate. maybe he didn't get a grade A for his kemahiran hidup yarrrrrr...)
All those bullshit aside, it was a rather mellow new year's. Mum, William and I thought that it would be easier to have a little sit down BBQ to finish up the leftover meat from Christmas. It ended up again in a little merry affair.. but it wasn't as complicated as it had been. Nicky, Teddy and Bernie called me up at the last minute and Edmund decided to pop over too. It was nice to see my old friends again. Bernie looked the same, Teddy looked... the same. Can't say much about his girlfriend too. Surprisingly, Bernie and William got into a rather animated chat - at one point I heard William introducing my dogs to Bernie. Nicky and Edmund were the.. odd ones out, I guess.. but they were kind enough to keep my mum company to usher in the new year as I had to send loverboy back home before his mum starts acting up again. My first few seconds of 2006 was spent in my car with my wubb wubb in a traffic jam - oh, and there were fireworks too. So it wasn't that bad at all.
Work wise... well.. same thing day in day out. Not that I am complaining. I rather enjoy it although at times things do seem to be dragging along - things has been much more cheerful since Sara (the new content editor) and Burpy (the new designer) started to be the bising lot. Farnee la they all. Calling each other 'aunties'.
Hmm. Just another amusing moment. Yesterday evening, as Jason was formulating weird-arse questions for a college-based questionnaire and he tested a question on unsuspecting Mr Lee.
J: Mr Lee ar... which colour of underwear do you have most?
L: Err.... Let me think arr..... A lot a lot of colours also got. But I think most is blue.
J: Yarrrr.... the undies come in 3's . Blue, grey and white. Sometimes even green yarrr...
L: Ohh... I don' t like white la.. Very easy get dirty.. My mother always complain wan...
Lynn: Noooohhhhh Mr. Lee... I don't want to knowwwwwww!
L: Ehhh?... You know why she always complain ar..?... Always get dirty~....
Lynn: AAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH.... nnnOoOoOooo....!
Yar. Never ask a naive, innocent person disgusting questions. You'd get weirder answers - and then you will wish that you were naive and innocent once again.
Work has been piling up as usual - the boss had let go one of the staff and well, guess where does the work go to? No candies for the right answer. :P
Christmas was uneventful. Had a 'small' gathering (which eventually expanded to a full-fledged BBQ party - thanks to my brother's friends). I had a wonderful evening with William by my side. It's amusing to watch him acting so differently in front of Sharmila and everyone else. It seems as if I have a secret crush on this other person other than the William that I know. On one side, he's the macho, protective, gung-ho, smooth talking gentleman - whom I admire and feel soooo secured in his arms. And on the other side, he's the typical lovey-dovey darling, possessive, whiny-baby-ishy little baby boy - whom I love to manja, to cuddle and sometimes take advantage of.
And he didn't even make a fuss when my mum woke us up at 3am to wash the dishes that my ding head of a brother did not bother to help with. However, we did get a shelling from his mum the next afternoon cause he was late for lunch (in other words, everyone in the house is so incompetent that he has to prepare any meal when the maid is off for holidays) and his entire family was left starving. (yar.. starvation for like 15 minutes.. In desperation, his brother chucked 2 raw potatoes with 2 slices of cheese into the microwave - the result looked like some nuclear bomb detonation had gone really wrong.. and the cheese looked as if it was part of the plate. maybe he didn't get a grade A for his kemahiran hidup yarrrrrr...)
All those bullshit aside, it was a rather mellow new year's. Mum, William and I thought that it would be easier to have a little sit down BBQ to finish up the leftover meat from Christmas. It ended up again in a little merry affair.. but it wasn't as complicated as it had been. Nicky, Teddy and Bernie called me up at the last minute and Edmund decided to pop over too. It was nice to see my old friends again. Bernie looked the same, Teddy looked... the same. Can't say much about his girlfriend too. Surprisingly, Bernie and William got into a rather animated chat - at one point I heard William introducing my dogs to Bernie. Nicky and Edmund were the.. odd ones out, I guess.. but they were kind enough to keep my mum company to usher in the new year as I had to send loverboy back home before his mum starts acting up again. My first few seconds of 2006 was spent in my car with my wubb wubb in a traffic jam - oh, and there were fireworks too. So it wasn't that bad at all.
Work wise... well.. same thing day in day out. Not that I am complaining. I rather enjoy it although at times things do seem to be dragging along - things has been much more cheerful since Sara (the new content editor) and Burpy (the new designer) started to be the bising lot. Farnee la they all. Calling each other 'aunties'.
Hmm. Just another amusing moment. Yesterday evening, as Jason was formulating weird-arse questions for a college-based questionnaire and he tested a question on unsuspecting Mr Lee.
J: Mr Lee ar... which colour of underwear do you have most?
L: Err.... Let me think arr..... A lot a lot of colours also got. But I think most is blue.
J: Yarrrr.... the undies come in 3's . Blue, grey and white. Sometimes even green yarrr...
L: Ohh... I don' t like white la.. Very easy get dirty.. My mother always complain wan...
Lynn: Noooohhhhh Mr. Lee... I don't want to knowwwwwww!
L: Ehhh?... You know why she always complain ar..?... Always get dirty~....
Lynn: AAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH.... nnnOoOoOooo....!
Yar. Never ask a naive, innocent person disgusting questions. You'd get weirder answers - and then you will wish that you were naive and innocent once again.
