l.o.v.e is not simple - it's forever

I woke up at 7am this morning - after a long night that seemed too long. Eve, Elly and I went to Carnegies again. Prior to that, i had caused an upset with my love over a small issue. I had cut the phone conversation short ... because I didn't want to hurt him with my soft sobs. I regretted it after that... because I knew he was hurt - whether i cried or not. I really should learn to get a firm grip on my emotions. I do have a quick temper but i do know that i have a very high level of tolerance too.

I did keep a straight face throughout the night although that feeling of hurt and regret was eating into my heart. Drinking does not cure lovesick-ness - i proved my hypothesis right (again) last night, just to be sure. And dancing with guys from the next table makes you feel even worst... flirting just makes things shittier.

Don't feel like disclosing the other details of the night. Can't remember half of them. Hehe.

Reaching home to hear his voice again was the only objective in my tipsy mind. I was indeed nearly drunk, as i did not have dinner. I have always trusted my driving when i am tipsy, but somehow I just had to tell William that I would be home in half an hour and to MAKE SURE that I reach home - and to tell him that I love him. I trust him with my life.. forever. *muahs* I'm sorry, my love... You have one damn confused chic for a girlfriend. ;)